Me and Danny and Phil went to the bandshell movie and I had a lousy time. I don't want to talk about it. I feel terrible. God, I'm lonely. This is the lowest ever I could feel. I saw Jane at the movie. She said hi to me once and went on by. I saw her talking to Tony Grandimenico. Jesus, how could I ever compete with him! I still have it bad for her. This never happened before. Before, whenever I had a crush, as soon as I found out for sure that the girl didn't like me, I quit liking her.