God, how bitchy can you get?!! What a bitch that Carber is! Christ! It's always her that ends up the goddam phone conversation! "Well, John, I gotta go." In other words, I'm sorry I'm tired of talking to you now so wait until next time I'm ready again! Shit! Shit shit shit! Hell, it scares me. She's just sliding, sliding out of my grasp. I've gotta hold her. Damn! It's awful. Bitch. Oh hell. Damn. I gotta. Hell!